In my years as a struggling musician I can honestly say that I have always struggled with 'purpose' for my music. For years.. I vered away from the mainstream christian thinking.. and promised myself that expressing my creativity was enough evidence of God in my life. Years later.. I have become an expert at drawing inspiration from anything but my relationship with God. But to what purpose?

Lyrically I have always been weak in all of my various projects. This has always been frustrating because I know 'lyrics' as well as 'music'.. and the art of pairing them together has developed in me far greater than ever before. Still, to date.. nothing lyrically ever makes the cut... and to me, this is evidence that if I am not writing purposed content then this is the kind of frustration I can expect for the rest of my life.

People hate to hear this: "A Christians goal in life is to know God better". Its simplicity is uncomfortable for most Christians. But it is truth. Read your Bible. If I cannot glorify God with my giftings.. then I am not purposed. If my giftings do not reflect my quest to know God better, and even to share of the joy I have in knowing God better with others, then they are not purposed. There is no purpose which exceeds our common Christian goal.

I am in a season of change as a writer, and a Christian for that matter. I cannot willingly exclude God from my creative expression. It is just not worth the painstaking cycle again. My heart is to know God more. And I now feel more freedom than ever to draw inspiration from the thing that inspires me most... my relationship with God. My writing is taking on a whole new purpose.